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There is a story burning in my soul.
A story about nightmares coming true.
A story about a carefully crafted life that crumbled.
A story about thick masks that ripped away.
A story about a mind, body & spirit suffering darkest fear & pain.
A story about a family asking why…

I know the story well, because it’s my story. And it’s time to send it out into the world to you.

Burnout and breakdown no longer define me. The twisted weeds that strangled me are thinned. The light is shining and joy is spilling over in a way I never knew and never thought was possible.

The journey was messy and scary.  It was also very good.  I was stripped down, yet I was reborn. I learned so many life changing truths. And I want you to know them, too. I want you to see yourself in the warning signs, in the pit of despair, and in the healing.

Join me on this page in October as I share daily doses of a story that I hope will change your life as it has changed mine.

Be Still and Be Well.
Laura

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Seeking The Still shared That Upcycled Life's Announcing TUL Co-Founders Laura Fleetwood & Bobbie Schae.

That Upcycled Life
HUGE ANNOUNCEMENT!
I am joining the team of That Upcycled Life YouTube show as a co-founder, partner & podcaster with Christine Chappell and Bobbie Schaeperkoetter. And it's all FOR YOU, MESSY MIRACLES! Because DIY projects are fun. They stretch us. They encourage us to get creative and messy...just like real life, which is also a focus of TUL. I have a feeling you could use a bit of creativity and upcycling in your life right about now, so would you please take a second to join this adventure with us? Here's how! Cue drum rolll, please...
1) Like That Upcycled Life Facebook Page
2) Subscribe to the YouTube channel:
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3) Follow us on Instagram:
www.instagram.com/thatupcycledlife
4) PLEASE CONTACT ME if you are a writer, speaker or creative entrepreneur. We have big opportunities for you!
Be Still,
Laura
P.S. Seeking The Still is not going anywhere. If anything, TUL will help my mission to be a Freedom Guide for Messy Miracles because together we can reach more people with help and hope.
XOXO
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We're excited to share...TUL is growing! Please join us in welcoming two ladies to the team who are so invested in the TUL vision, they've been given the title of co-founders. In this interview-sty...

5 days ago

I am SOOOO excited for this!! <3

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Congratulations! Exciting news!!

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Praying for you all!!

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How awesome Laura!!

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The power of the cross is the freedom it provides for EVERY. ONE. The sacrifice Jesus made for each messy human being is the most inclusive, life giving, peace making, unifying force I can imagine. It is pure. It is lovely. It keeps no record of wrongs. It is something we Messy Miracles can never truly grasp or appreciate, but we must keep trying because it is LOVE. True Love wins, my friend. The darkness cannot overcome it. Our mess and our prejudice and our judgement can not thwart it. May you ever move toward True Love this side of heaven, until you bask in it for eternity. For this is most certainly true...LOVE WINS. Be Still, Laura . . #valentinesday #ashwednesday #grace #lent #freedomwriter #graceseeker #MessyMiracle #seekingthestill #inneedofgrace ift.tt/2F2LT78
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The power of the cross is the freedom it provides for EVERY. ONE. The sacrifice Jesus made for each messy human being is the most inclusive, life giving, peace making, unifying force I can imagine. It is pure. It is lovely. It keeps no record of wrongs. It is something we Messy Miracles can never truly grasp or appreciate, but we must keep trying because it is LOVE. True Love wins, my friend. The darkness cannot overcome it. Our mess and our prejudice and our judgement can not thwart it. May you ever move toward True Love this side of heaven, until you bask in it for eternity. For this is most certainly true...LOVE WINS. Be Still, Laura . . #valentinesday #ashwednesday #grace #lent #freedomwriter #graceseeker #MessyMiracle #seekingthestill #inneedofgrace http://ift.tt/2F2LT78

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In case you missed it, check out You’re Invited https://goo.gl/cFuXgq
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Hot off the press: You’re Invited https://goo.gl/cFuXgq
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When adventure awaits & you are stuck on a runway...there is a lot of time to think. Here’s what I’m musing right now. I could fill my heart and head with all kinds of expectations about this trip to #voxcon in #nyc and would most likely end up disappointed in some way. Or...I could choose to seek the still and open my soul to WHATEVER happens and be surprised & blessed by the mystery unfolding. I choose #SeekingTheStill 💕 But I also might secretly be dreaming for some chat time with @donmilleris @marykarrny @mpopovits And @sallylloydjones 😉 #MessyMiracle Be Still, Laura Follow along at #seekingTheStillInNYC ift.tt/2GVRdK9
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When adventure awaits & you are stuck on a runway...there is a lot of time to think. Here’s what I’m musing right now. I could fill my heart and head with all kinds of expectations about this trip to #voxcon in #nyc and would most likely end up disappointed in some way. Or...I could choose to seek the still and open my soul to WHATEVER happens and be surprised & blessed by the mystery unfolding. I choose #SeekingTheStill 💕 But I also might secretly be dreaming for some chat time with @donmilleris @marykarrny @mpopovits And @sallylloydjones 😉 #MessyMiracle Be Still, Laura Follow along at #seekingTheStillInNYC http://ift.tt/2GVRdK9

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With fingers tapping words of wisdom and my voice whispering that you are not alone, I’m here to show you how I trade my daily overwhelm for the only source of lasting peace. Join me? Be Still, Laura . . . #seekingthestill #christiancreative #gritandvirtue #MessyMiracle #writerslife #hereforyou #anxietyhelp #joinmyteam # ift.tt/2BbKOu0
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2 weeks ago

With fingers tapping words of wisdom and my voice whispering that you are not alone, I’m here to show you how I trade my daily overwhelm for the only source of lasting peace. Join me? Be Still, Laura . . . #seekingthestill #christiancreative #gritandvirtue #MessyMiracle #writerslife #hereforyou #anxietyhelp #joinmyteam # http://ift.tt/2BbKOu0

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I S H O W E D U P / / Could I fly down a mini-mountain days after a blood boiling anxiety attack? The truth is I didn't know. But I showed up anyway. Because some days that's the bravest thing we can do. Just show up, Messy Miracle. In your weariness. In your fear. In your joy. In your mess. Because showing up is more than half the battle. And more often than not, once you're there, YOU WILL FLY. Be Still, Laura . . . . . . . #seekingthestill #messymiracle #anxietyhelp #mentalhealth #anxiety #iwillsurvive #depression #showupanyway #gritandgrace #bebrave #letgo #stoppanic #posthepeople #humaneffect # quietthechaos #motherhoodalive #momofgirls #momoftweens ift.tt/2GwhcYn
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I S H O W E D U P / / Could I fly down a mini-mountain days after a blood boiling anxiety attack? The truth is I didnt know. But I showed up anyway. Because some days thats the bravest thing we can do. Just show up, Messy Miracle. In your weariness. In your fear. In your joy. In your mess. Because showing up is more than half the battle. And more often than not, once youre there, YOU WILL FLY. Be Still, Laura . . . . . . . #seekingthestill #messymiracle #anxietyhelp #mentalhealth #anxiety #iwillsurvive #depression #showupanyway #gritandgrace #bebrave #letgo #stoppanic #posthepeople #humaneffect # quietthechaos #motherhoodalive #momofgirls #momoftweens http://ift.tt/2GwhcYn

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Despair is what happens when you think things will never change. But everything is ALWAYS changing. Case in point...last night this beauty was just a bud. Now it’s the prettiest thing I ever did see. Be Still, Laura . . . . . #seekingthestill #lifeisart #simplethings #naturetherapy ift.tt/2BBN7mG
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Despair is what happens when you think things will never change. But everything is ALWAYS changing. Case in point...last night this beauty was just a bud. Now it’s the prettiest thing I ever did see. Be Still, Laura . . . . . #seekingthestill #lifeisart #simplethings #naturetherapy http://ift.tt/2BBN7mG

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It was almost a year since I my last anxiety attack...until last Friday night. I don’t know why it happened. I don’t know how it knocks me completely off kilter or why the anxiety lingers still. I DO know that it will eventually fade and in the meantime, I remind myself to practice what I teach. I’m posting this because it’s important to know I still struggle. And one in four of the lovely ladies & girls in your life are struggling, too...probably the ones you least suspect. Between the months of shiny photos, encouraging posts and smiling videos, there are days...even weeks like this. It’s why I named us Messy Miracles, my friend. On this side of heaven, we will forever live within the tension of the two. I don’t know when the adrenaline will stop flooding my veins, just like I don’t know when the pain you’re feeling will ease. But I DO know that we don’t have to go it alone. I called my team. Have you? They sit with me and bring me food and take the load off at work. They hug me and text me and are the skin of Jesus to me. If you don’t know your team, please reach out. I didn’t meet several of the people on my team until just recently. God is already putting your team into place. You just may not know it yet. And for the love of all things Holy, please step up for those who need YOUR help. Let’s keep showing up one next right thing at a time. Because we can do hard things...together. Be Still, Laura . . #seekingthestill #messymiracle #anxietyhelp #anxietywarrior #bestill #tellyourteam ift.tt/2DYzOPQ
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4 weeks ago

It was almost a year since I my last anxiety attack...until last Friday night. I don’t know why it happened. I don’t know how it knocks me completely off kilter or why the anxiety lingers still. I DO know that it will eventually fade and in the meantime, I remind myself to practice what I teach. I’m posting this because it’s important to know I still struggle. And one in four of the lovely ladies & girls in your life are struggling, too...probably the ones you least suspect. Between the months of shiny photos, encouraging posts and smiling videos, there are days...even weeks like this. It’s why I named us Messy Miracles, my friend. On this side of heaven, we will forever live within the tension of the two. I don’t know when the adrenaline will stop flooding my veins, just like I don’t know when the pain you’re feeling will ease. But I DO know that we don’t have to go it alone. I called my team. Have you? They sit with me and bring me food and take the load off at work. They hug me and text me and are the skin of Jesus to me. If you don’t know your team, please reach out. I didn’t meet several of the people on my team until just recently. God is already putting your team into place. You just may not know it yet. And for the love of all things Holy, please step up for those who need YOUR help. Let’s keep showing up one next right thing at a time. Because we can do hard things...together. Be Still, Laura . . #seekingthestill #messymiracle #anxietyhelp #anxietywarrior #bestill #tellyourteam http://ift.tt/2DYzOPQ

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Insecurities are a strange thing. Earlier this week I held a mic and spoke in front of 1200 women without batting a single one of my false eyelashes. Tonight, I stood in front of a mic in a room of less than 10 musicians and was so insecure I almost left in tears. I’m not a trained vocalist, you guys. I can’t harmonize. I just love to sing and worship. That’s it. I’m totally comfortable on the risers BEHIND the leads. Put me on a mic, and I feel like a fraud. Greg looks at me and says, “what part were you singing?” And I’m like...”the melody?” But here’s the thing. I know my insecurity dragon well. He likes to take good things and flip them upside down. He also likes to make me believe everything is about me. And that’s the farthest thing from the truth. So on Sunday morning, I’ll be up there singing my heart out to The One that it’s actually about. And as my daughter Anna just reassured me after I told my team...”besides, Mom, all you need to do is just know the words.” That’s all. Be Still, Laura . . . . #seekingthestill #messymiracle #amateur #tellingitlikeitis ift.tt/2DOfiS6
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Insecurities are a strange thing. Earlier this week I held a mic and spoke in front of 1200 women without batting a single one of my false eyelashes. Tonight, I stood in front of a mic in a room of less than 10 musicians and was so insecure I almost left in tears. I’m not a trained vocalist, you guys. I can’t harmonize. I just love to sing and worship. That’s it. I’m totally comfortable on the risers BEHIND the leads. Put me on a mic, and I feel like a fraud. Greg looks at me and says, “what part were you singing?” And I’m like...”the melody?” But here’s the thing. I know my insecurity dragon well. He likes to take good things and flip them upside down. He also likes to make me believe everything is about me. And that’s the farthest thing from the truth. So on Sunday morning, I’ll be up there singing my heart out to The One that it’s actually about. And as my daughter Anna just reassured me after I told my team...”besides, Mom, all you need to do is just know the words.” That’s all. Be Still, Laura . . . . #seekingthestill #messymiracle #amateur #tellingitlikeitis http://ift.tt/2DOfiS6

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P E O P L E O V E R P E R F E C T I rushed around the house lighting candles, fluffing pillows and spitting on tissues to wipe toothpaste from bathroom mirrors. This is how the “before breakdown” Laura anxiously prepared for company. // I wish I still wasn’t bothered by silly things like pillows when guests are around, but I am learning to LET IT GO when that prickly urge to put them back in place rises within me. // My guests aren't visiting a hotel. They are in my home where two adults, two girls, two cats and one dog spend their days. // When my full attention is on my guests, not my home, only then my heart is truly full. . . . . #seekingthestill #messymiracle #workinprogress #findingbalance #solovelysofree # #livefullyalive #gritandvirtue #pursuewhatislovely #theeverydayproject #belovedlife ift.tt/2qLyk8Q
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1 month ago

P E O P L E O V E R P E R F E C T I rushed around the house lighting candles, fluffing pillows and spitting on tissues to wipe toothpaste from bathroom mirrors. This is how the “before breakdown” Laura anxiously prepared for company. // I wish I still wasn’t bothered by silly things like pillows when guests are around, but I am learning to LET IT GO when that prickly urge to put them back in place rises within me. // My guests arent visiting a hotel. They are in my home where two adults, two girls, two cats and one dog spend their days. // When my full attention is on my guests, not my home, only then my heart is truly full. . . . . #seekingthestill #messymiracle #workinprogress #findingbalance #solovelysofree # #livefullyalive #gritandvirtue #pursuewhatislovely #theeverydayproject #belovedlife http://ift.tt/2qLyk8Q

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I’m headed into Target on Super Saturday, but I’M NOT SCARED!
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2 months ago

I'm getting ready to finish my shopping and I'm soooooo glad I saw this first!! ❤

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I'm heading to Wall Mart... Thank you for these reminders!! Merry Christmas!

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I will say prayers gor you dear one

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DONT DO IT! LOL

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There’s so much I look forward to this time of year...cozy movie nights under piles of plush throws, flickering fires, dreaming about the new year around the corner, just to name a few...And now there’s this: The first ever Seeking The Still Gift Guide is slated for release next Thursday, Nov 30. It’s for those of us that love givng gifts that matter. And I promise it’s even better than an extra hot, super sweet cup of pumpkin spice latte!
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3 months ago

There’s so much I look forward to this time of year...cozy movie nights under piles of plush throws, flickering fires, dreaming about the new year around the corner, just to name a few...And now there’s this: The first ever Seeking The Still Gift Guide is slated for release next Thursday, Nov 30. It’s for those of us that love givng gifts that matter. And I promise it’s even better than an extra hot, super sweet cup of pumpkin spice latte!
Cup: @nder

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